Journal Entry 8/4/2021
These travels have taught me a lot about the things I value in other people. Even though I do not love the relationship I am in, it has made me appreciate the small moments and bonds around me for what they are. I used to look for what I wanted, I would always have a plan and I would be disappointed by other people’s actions. But now, I have fewer expectations, if any at all, and I am much happier. I like that I can enjoy the moment now and figure out the rest later. I am learning how to live in the present moment.
You see, I’ve come to realize that the future is beyond my control. Have I ever thought that before? I don’t think so. I don’t think I’ve ever allowed myself to enjoy the present moment before. I was robbed of a youth that I long to create, and little by little, I have. Looking back, I’ve had the perfect upbringing: a lot of friends, educational challenges that encouraged academic growth, participated in all sports I had an interest in and was able to form strong connections with wise adults who prepared me for the future that is my present moment today.
In the past, I was not 100% present, but looking back, I have nothing but gratitude for the wonderful souls who have taught me invaluable life lessons, throughout the way; good and bad. I’ve learned so much in such a little time that has allowed me to become the person that I am today. I’m glad I received the “tough life lessons” early so that I could enjoy the “good life” in my 20s.
I have nothing but gratitude and I look forward to the rest of this journey.
(Boy, I had no idea what was in store for me!)